Those that have followed this blog may have noticed a long lapse between posts, especially last year. I was going through another period of redefining myself. Even more so, I was going through a time of being paralyzed by fear.
Fear kept me from moving forward. I had days of just staring at my computer screen unable to write. I let the blog lapse. I hardly ever posted on Facebook. I let a lot of what I built just whither away.
Then at some point, I realized that I had to move forward and do so immediately, or lose not only all I built and done, but lose myself. I think that last year had some of my darkest moments.
What turned me around was a journal I started to keep. In every entry, I looked at the day and found things to be grateful for. I ended every entry with “Thank You! Thank You! Thank You!” Within weeks of starting the journal, new business and new business opportunities started pouring in. I moved forward in spite of the fear. The fear was as great, but I moved through it much like one would move through a wall of smoke. Even though I couldn’t see what was on the other side of that wall, I walked through it, and it did nothing to restrain me. Just like smoke, the fear blinded me, but had no power to hinder forward movement. The only thing that had restrained me was my own mind, my own thoughts, my own imagination.
On the other side of the wall, all that I had feared blew away. It never existed, except in my mind. I learned a great lesson in fearlessness. It is not the absence of fear. Instead, fearlessness is the refusal to allow fear dominion, it is the removal of its power. For me fearlessness is the reclaiming of my power.
Fearlessness is an action. It is something I do when I feel fearful that conquers fear.
’til next time,